2010年4月22日星期四

讓神判斷我

保祿寫道:時候未到,你們什麼也不要判斷,只等主來。 (格前 4:1-5)
I'm not aware of anything that would disqualify me from being a good guide for you, but that doesn't mean much. The Master makes that judgment.


甚麼也不要判斷
第一包括自己。
對於別人的評頭品足,溫馨提示
我想我真的要好好學習怎樣聽
怎樣隔掉中間惡意的,胡亂加諸在我身上的
憑良心上路好了
但原來這樣是很難的
因為
路上太多評頭品足,溫馨提示
而我必須備註:
通往地獄的路,很多時是由善意所鋪。

2010年3月4日星期四

self reflection on FAITH

保祿寫道:我們在一切磨難困苦中,因了你們的信德,由你們獲得了安慰。 (得前 3:6-13)
In the middle of our trouble and hard times here, just knowing how you're doing keeps us going. Knowing that your faith is alive keeps us alive.


我發現我經常因為其他人的信心感到憤怒而不是安慰。
像黃子華說,我不要我多一粒魚蛋,我想佢都少一粒魚蛋。
求主憐憫

Day 2

Dear Lord,
the fasting doesn't really go according to my wish.
In day 1, i changed the rule.
I have 2 meals fasting a day and dinner at night, with veggie only.
But, i think that's acceptable and workable for me.
At least I don't want to give up so far.

The thing i learn in this time is,
Don't put a too high goal at the beginning,
a progression is needed for newbie.

I will do it at least for the whole March, and may be go on.

2010年3月1日星期一

披上基督

保祿寫道:我們該脫去黑暗的行為,穿上主耶穌基督。 (羅 13:11-14)
11-14But make sure that you don't get so absorbed and exhausted in taking care of all your day-by-day obligations that you lose track of the time and doze off, oblivious to God. The night is about over, dawn is about to break. Be up and awake to what God is doing! God is putting the finishing touches on the salvation work he began when we first believed. We can't afford to waste a minute, must not squander these precious daylight hours in frivolity and indulgence, in sleeping around and dissipation, in bickering and grabbing everything in sight. Get out of bed and get dressed! Don't loiter and linger, waiting until the very last minute. Dress yourselves in Christ, and be up and about!


我們脫下的,和穿上的,性質有根本上的不同。
脫去的是行為,穿上的是神。 why?


我們不是穿上基督的行為;
也不是基督的性情,品格;
而是基督。
就是說,
我們不只是在外表上模仿祂,或靠對祂的認識來有樣學樣。
聖經把這些go deeper
我們穿上基督
這可是一個關於聯合的課題,而多過「榜樣」。
榜樣還是一個他者(other),但聯合是另一回事了。

2010年2月28日星期日

God in the absence

耶穌帶了伯多祿、若望和雅各伯上山去祈禱。正當他祈禱時,祂的面容改變。然後,有一片雲彩遮蔽了他們。雲中有聲音說:「這是我的兒子,我所揀選的,你們要聽從衪!」 (路 9:28-36)
While he was babbling on like this, a light-radiant cloud enveloped them. As they found themselves buried in the cloud, they became deeply aware of God. Then there was a voice out of the cloud: "This is my Son, the Chosen! Listen to him."


It's very foggy in HK now, really foggy.
I cannot see the opposite side of the harbor, not even the street clearly.
That's somehow like the cloud covers the disciples.


The scripture associate itself with the Moses tradition, when Moses met god in the mountain,
the mountain was covered with cloud too.


sometime, i think, the 5 senses of us is a tool of *feeling* God, but also distracts us from God.
we look around, we heard noises, we smell funny things, our body feel uncomfortable, or tired.
All these doesn't help us to concentrate.
May be this is why the God covered the disciples with cloud, and reveling himself in the cloud.
another meaning of it is, God is beyond any visions, you cannot visualize Him.


when I consider 'see things in God, see God in things', i now add this
'God is also in absence'
When the surrounding is foggy, may be it's a sign of God, God wants you to listen to Him.

day -2

this is the day -2 of my fasting.
tmr (sunday) will be day -1
monday will be day 0

tmr i will start eating less, to tune my stomach.
day 0 is the preparatory day, i will eat only veggie to clean my guts up.
in the whole process, i will only consume fluid, excluding milk.
soy milk is marginal.
soup is accepted without 湯渣.
juice is accepted and preferred.

dear Lord,

I have too much need to be listened and decide.
I come to fast before you, with great needs.
I need to know the following:

1: my future battlefield.
2: our wedding venue.
3: How to move next.

and i need to pray for:
1: the money i need in wedding.
2: to understand myself before i get into the battle.
3: sins, unveiling sins.
4: aob

May you be with me, and stop me from eating.
This is a fight I need to win before I graduate.

in Jesus name i ask
Amen.

2010年2月24日星期三

有智者為神友

上主的智慧常使萬物更新。她世世代代,進入聖善的靈魂,使他們成為上主的朋友。 (智 7:21-30)


由於這不是(新教的)正典,所以我可以質疑一下。
上主的智慧進入聖善的靈魂,但是
聖善的靈魂有沒有把從上來的智慧活過出來?
還有,「有智者為神友」的觀念很特別。
有趣在於,不是上帝歧視蠢人
而是蠢人歧視上帝
或者是所謂智慧,其實乃認識主本身
凡和上主為友者,智也